Two food-tastings in a day, two filling and satisfying one. In total, i've eaten about a hundred sing dollars worth of good food just today alone. One in a seafood restaurant serving fresh huge delectable fishies, while the other, western food in an award-winning place of interest with an exotic dining experience.

My eyes are barely open with cough syrup evident in my blood. Been piercing through the silence of MRT carraiges and the office with coughs, hopefully no germs, but that's hard. All the coughs are driving me crazy, it actually feels bad to cough when you're there tasting others' food. I got a feeling it doesn't seem nice though they had been very nice about it. Three more articles to go, and I'll be free til the next schedule comes in for the next issue.

Took tons of photo of the food that easily adds up to a hundred moolahs but in case of copyright issues, they shall be kept for personal and private purposes. Can't do free advertising either, I suppose it'll not be beneficial.

Oh yes, even though my eyes are half-opened now, I have to declare this. I will be spending a very meaningful Christmas out there celebrating with the elderlys at a old folks home to liven up their otherwise routine lifes. I'm glad I'm finally taking a step closer to what I've always thought i should do. Being able to bring joy to others with a simple act that means so much, i am proud of myself.

I'm a good girl..haha..

*Eyes closiing...Can tahan no longer..*

Another food-tastng tomorrow at a place I'm extremely familiar with, practically grew up there. Fun awaits!

I'm glad to see everyone enjoying their interships, at least most whom i remain contacts with. Oh yes, speaking of contacts, I've collected several, and when they seem to expect me to return with a namecard of mine, i could only apologised and say i'm only an intern and thus no cards. Thinking of doing personalised low-budget ones myself..Rather feasible actually..Gee.. Alright, eyes are almost fully shut now...

Til Then Folks! Cheers!

Like an island...

Like Pulau Ubin, I'm like an island on my own, where i get occassional visitors offering me delicacies that's too good to be rejected, simple concerns that means more than simple, and an iMac that dates back to '98 which still strives to work hard despite what's left of its counterparts' are only spares parts wanted by the some rag-and-bone men.

I'm not complaining, cuz I sort of enjoy myself and have learnt to self-entertain in that little corner of mine. Even though the table would be considered mine only for a short three months span, I'm slowing feeding it with things that would eventually make it look like mine. I enjoy customising my stuff, I'm sure you people know that, with all the rhinestones on my mobile and wallet.

When I submitted my first ever article that I've probably read through a million times before submitting, I can't help but hesitate to put it on the editor's table. I'm not sure if it's good enough to be published, but I've put in much effort for the information and referred to probably tons of sources to fill up two pages for bibliography. Even if it eventually does not turn out like what I wrote, I'll still be glad and thankful for the opportunity to write and be responsible for several sections. It feels great to be placed in charge of several write-ups, but responsibility follows and that doesn't allow for any negligence.

Gonna be going around for food-tasting tomorrow. Two feasts in a day, one lunch, the other dinner. Maybe i should be thick-skinned and ask if I can "Da Bao" another set home or back to office. Nah, kidding. My skin's pretty thin, literally. A seafood grill and a restaurant burger meal in a day. See what i mean by "I can forget about slimming during internship here..Haha"? No, no, i'm not complaining at all, no, i'm not. In fact, I see this as a good opportunity and eye-opening experience. We used to write press releases for our assignments in class, now, i'm the one reading others' press releases, presenting praises to the deserving professional and meticulous ones.

I'm constantly learning, even if I'm just flipping through the other publications for reference. Every minute, I'm learning something, things that might or might not in a way change my values and viewpoint. Quoting 'Mei Ren Yu', i agree with her totally that you get to learn something from everybody everytime, from the office cleaniness 'auntie' who deserves a 'thank you' everytime she clears your dustbin, to someone whom you've only seen on a magazine cover. It doesn't matter how beneficial the knowledge is to you, cuz at the end of the day, you learn something new.

I'm looking forward to the Christmas parties and gatherings. Even though i'm not a Christian or Catholic, I celebrate this joyous festival that allows for a great chance for people to come together. Four Christmas gift exchanges, excluding personal gifts, and the wallet is burnt. Even my 'Chinese New Year clothes fund" failed to escape being touched. All my gifts have been thought through and bears meanings.

Oh yes, and did i mentioned 5566's 5566 One World, One Dream Singapore Concert 2005 was GREAT? It was! Photos of them in action should be up in due time, i think. Suffering from 5566-withdrawal symptoms and over-loading my mp4 with their songs, flooding my mind with their images and voices with their songs in my mp4 and programmes on cable television. Haha..

Currently engrossed in National Geographic Magzines that were destined for the recycling bin if I didn't save it in time. Interesting Magazine!

And if you recognise her, yes, she has an endearing nickname in the drama which points to a legendary fairy tale being with an upper body like a human, and the lower a fish.


Til then folks! Cheers! ;)

So far, So good...

It's been a week since our internships started, and I'm loving every minute of it. So far, it's has been good, hopefully i will tell you i'm loving what i'm doing more and more when the weeks go by.

Frankly, when i initially received information that i'm gonna be posted there, i was wishing for the chance to go around tasting good free food with the writers and editors and be able to go around interviwing personalities. I thought it was a thing too good to be true cuz i would be photocopying, typing, and doing all the what's not.

NO!I was wrong! Gladly wrong! It's one of the rare times when i'm glad that i'm wrong. I wasn't prepared for the interview and photoshoot on Thursday cuz i wasn't sure if i could follow. Not only did they bring me along, our writer also asked me to interview the personality together with her! I'm not sure if i can reveal who it is now cuz I'm not really sure if i can cuz these stuff might be confidential til the next issue reveals it, but those who i've sent the SMS should know who she is. You can see who it is from my messenger avatar anyway..

The personality was all sweet, nice, friendly, and approachable. She even asked me if i was a soft-spoken person when i introduced myself like a mouse. Actually i was about to cough with phlegm stuck at the throat so i spoke sofeter than a mouse. But i was frank that i usually need time to warm up to people, which is an obstacle i have to remove in order for my career path to be smoother. Haha.. The interview went on smooth, and i actually felt like we were chatting when i kept reminding myself that however lively the conversation is, i don't need to say too much about myself cuz the readers wouldn't be interested in my words cuz they'll definitely be interested in hers. So during the interview when it was being recorded for future reference, apart from laughing, nodding, and questioning, I didn't talk too much. Remember we had a CA on interviewing personalities? It's like the real thing down, and it was way cool...

The stylists were talking about iPods and LV covers for their iPods like we're talking about buying batteries for our remote controls. Being part of the crew, the VIP seats right smack in the front are also always reserved for them. Makes me wonder when will i be able to get media passes and free VIP tickets to concerts. Ok, i'm backing from dreaming...let's move on..

Our writer was experience at mingling with the PR personnels, stylists, manager, and everyone. I feel as though i'm speaking to my cousin when i'm talking to her, and it's quite good. I should open up myself and be more "hard-spoken"(yes, i know there isn't such a word) and approachable so it'll be better for my survival in the future.

Besides interviewing celebrities(actually only one to date, but editor told me i can look forward to more. Muahaha..), the exciting part is i get to write too(man, i'm really nervous cuz that'll be considered when grading comes), and how could i forget the good freebies, good food from food-tasting, and the friendly and professional colleagues.

Good, great, and will be better. Looking forward to seeing it in print. Exciting!

More updates and photos when i get home from 5566's concert later! WoOhOo!!~~

Til Then Folks! A toast to whatever's ahead of us, and looking really forward to the Christmas Parties and Gatherings! Cheers! ;)

The Last

9 December 2005

From DMC/FT/1A/05...


to DMC/FT/3B/05.


It marked the last day of school in school of my polytechnic education.

I kept mentioning about the last emotional post i would post on the last day of school in the previous posts. Now it's really the last day.

I thought the last day wouldn't come that fast. I thought it was still a few months away, a few weeks away, or even a few days away. But i came too fast, and it ended the same way. It felt weird, the kind of feeling I didn't feel when I graduated from Primary and Secondary School.

Perhaps in the previous graduations, i could confidently assure myself that it will not be a problem to meet up with the rest frequently, the assurance that we will meet often no matter what. I'm greatly comforted that my confident assurances to myself and the rest is still intact, at least to 90% at the moment. Perhaps the weird feeling i sense now is due to the uncertainty. I wish for all of us to come together, even just over fills of Starbucks or Teh-Bings, as often as we wish too. I hope for our friendship to stay as strong, if not better, even 5 or 10 years down the road. I wish for everyone to remain in contact and i hope for at the very least, annual gatherings. But I'm not that sure now.

The last day was pretty emotional. I could actually feel it throughout the last week. It all seemed too fast. Day by day, we were busy with the final 2 assignments, busy cherishing our time together, busy planning, busy taking in all visuals and scenes around us.

The taxis refuse to come just when you urgently need it. I waited for 10 freaking minutes before i managed to grab a cab to rush to school in hand in the final assignments. I finally reached SP School of Business. It felt weird as i set foot on the grounds for school for the last time where i've spent my 2.5 years of tertiary education. The lecturers weren't in their rooms, so i slipped my report and portfolio somewhere under the rest and headed to Foodcourt 6. As usual, my dear De'Lites sat at the table for 6, brainstorming what we promised to present to our client in less than 2 hours. It was rather nerve-wrecking knowing we had such limited time, and my constant 'time-checks' to the ladies didn't help in unwrecking their nerves. It became like a class project when the guys came to the Digital Media Studio to help us out here and there. Copies of the hand-drawn logos were scanned and pasted, our Creative Director trying her best to improvise the visual using the wonderful skills she used for our Comm Project.

It was back to the classroom where the rest of the class had started the pizza feast. As we marched into the classroom and several turned to greet us, i knew deep inside i won't be seeing the same 15 faces in the same setting again from the next week. I was prepared, all of us put aside our eyeliners and mascaras, but the atmosphere was weird. As De'Lites presented our 'trophy' to sweetest Ms Nga, it still didn't dawn on me and most of us were still pretty calm. Ms Kwa took forever to come up to our classroom, and we all know why. Clutching my orange cup that contained my note with her favourite MingDao photo in it, the rest of De'Lites likewise, we were prepared to present Ms Kwa's 'trophy' to her, but she had to make us emotional. I had never teared in front my my friends, at least in my recent years, and there went my first drop of tear for the phase. I've never seen Nity and Clarice cry, Carine and Winoa kept theirs in with a look out of the window, and I'm sure Nina was glad she left her eyeliner out of the regime.

We spent the rest of the day writing notes for the rest of the lecturer for helping and believing in us for their individual 'trophies', taking photos with the lecturers and classmates, and basking in what seemed like the last few hours together in the classroom.

After several hugs, we proceeded to hand out trophies to the rest of the lecturers. Each note contained our thoughts and thanks to each of them who played a part in giving us a hand or two for our success in the Community Project 2005. Mr. Ang's reply to our note was quite surprising to few of us. Thanks to all lecturers to helped and believed in us. You don't know how much we appreciate it.

I thought i would regret taking this route on the first day of the orientation at East Coast park 2.5 years ago.

Now i leave this school, these lecturers, these classmates, with a sense of gratitude. For making my polytechnic life memorable, in a special way.

And yes De'lites, we ended it with a BANG!

The last few weeks of school was especially sweet.

The fruits of success are addictive.

The paths we've walked will remain.

The days we've spend will be etched in my mind like always.

Life had been good. It is still good, and will always be for each and everyone of us.

Cheers to success in our respective internship companies! ;)

De'Lites Agency

De'Lites Agency Rocks!!!

We Kicked Ass!

WooHoo!!~~

Thank you for all the best wishes and support! Thank you! Aaaahhhhh!





























I'm grateful for everything...Thank You!

I love you ladies! We rock, don't we?

3 Prizes
Overall 1st Prize
Best Communication Strategy
Best Individual Presenter - Clarice

Although all of us hoped to win, i was pretty shock when we won. Moments of hard work, sacrificed time with family, money into creatives, and minor debates doing the project flashed across my mind suddenly. Tears almost fell, but we didn't allow cuz we can't look ugly with all mascaras and eyeliners flowing down. We gladly received our prizes, receive congratulations gratefully, congratulate others, and enjoyed the rest of the day.

After the lecture hall emptied, our adrenaline level dipped drastically. Happiness remained, but we were all too tired from the preparation for this important day. A dinner at Swensens at Suntec City saw each of us gobbling our food to erase our famished states. The next table was extremely noisy, irritating the whole restaurant. On normal days, our table would be the noisest, with our loud people here.(oops..)

Here's a big toast to all of you! CHEERS!~

Our effort, time, and money were all worth it.

More photos will come in, i think.

Til Then Folks!! Allow me to bask in happiness for as long as possible!

I must have drawn circles with the brush tool in Photoshop for a hundred times. Up til now, i don't think it looks very similar to the original one our creative director re-created. Now i see blue circles even when I close my eyes. Maybe i shouldn't complain since our creative director is seeing more colours and four-angled stuff. I don't look forward to drawing more circles, even if i might really have to...Bleargh..

At the beginning of this new semester, I mentioned this was the last six weeks in this stage of education in my life. In just a mere flash, we've come to the 4th week of this final semester. In no time, we'll all pack up and leave for our internship companies respectively. It seems that most of the people are packed to companies in town, while mine's far away in Genting Lane. I'm not complaining about the 1.5 hour journey. I'm not complaining about the cost of travel. I'm not complaining about the lack of communication. I'm not complaining about the pay. No, I'm not complaining. Just some rambling at most. I'm fortunate enough. Yes, I am.

It's been 11 days since i last blogged, cuz i've planned my entries. The next one following the 'Hari Raya' post would be of one to thank everyone who remember and/or celebrated my birthday for me 10 days ago, that's November 15, 2005. I was waiting for the visuals to arrive so i could post a full entry with 'visual aids', but they never arrived. I waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited (yes, that's exactly how many days i've waited..), but no one sent me the files. Since the higher resolution cameras have taken over my 3.2 mega pixels humble Sony camera, I've been cutting down on its exposure to the world, relying on the newer cameras. But it seems it's still best to bring my humble one out cuz i can get the pictures as soon as i get home. It seems weird now that i'm the one waiting for others to send the photos to me since i was the one sending the photos to others just some time ago.

Alright, my old humble Sony, i will continue to bring you out, more often this time, even though you're almost 3 times heavier and bulkier than the newer ones. You won't die on me, will you? I don't expect 'no' for an answer. Fortunately i brought you on the day HJ & Yutang & Gals, and a guy, celebrated mine at Swensens on Nov 16, 2005, cuz the higher resolution one failed to work or we won't have any visuals to capture the moments that day. I'm also more than glad that you managed to capture my favourite idols for me when they were in Singapore several days ago, so i could convert them into smaller files and place them in my mp4, conveniently able to see more than just still pictures whenever i miss them. I still love you, my humble Sony 3.2 mega pixel digital camera! ;D

Thanks for everything people!
Thanks for remembering in the first place! Whether your wishes came in at 12am or 11:59pm, it all mattered to me. All messages are still well in my phone. ;)
Thanks for celebrating this special day of mine for me!

Thanks so much to V3, HuiJuan & Gals(you know who you are), De'Lites (we're delightful people with delightful power, armed with delightful projects!Ok, maybe the projects part wasn't exactly that delightful. It'll be next wednesday!)
Thanks for the presents! Whether it was $10 or $100, it all mattered to me. Everything is kept carefully so 10 years down the road, i'll still recall who gave me the item and reminisce about the past.

We look intimidating? Well, i hope we truly are and not just 'look'. Everything is finally falling into place with everyone putting in their efforts. Our presenters are also fill to the brim with stress and information overload. One walked straight into a drain and another continuously doing crazy stuff, with MayDay as her encouragement and support. We're also thankful for the lecturers' flexibility to make several things easier on us.

My hair is weighing me down, or perhaps, it's just the tasks left hanging that's weighing me down. Karaoke, shopping, movies? Sorry girls, all out for me till slightly before mid-december. As much as i wish to go, i can't.

Getting sleepy. Lack of quality sleep. So much so that i'm looking uglier. Wait or have i been ugly? Ok, i don't need an answer unless it's absolutely positive, thank you.

I'm actually almost always prepared for the negative side to things, but i tend to discard the negative feelings and create positive ones instead. I don't like to be negative about stuff, whether daily life or expectations. I don't like negative shows, so when a show starts to get negative and i know that the ending isn't going to be a happy one, i'll stop watching it. Simple as that. I like to make myself happy. Why fret? Assignments not done at the eleventh hour? Don't get an anxiety attack yet, you still have the twelveth hour. Totally down when everything seems bleak or going against your wishes? Don't sink into depression yet, everything's not hopeless yet.

Oh yes, i forgot to mention that my mood swing is gone. I no longer wake up feeling horrible in the mind, nor do i tear that easily or depressed. Like i've said in the previous mock interview when i was less ridiculously nervous, through the years, i've realised not everything goes my way or as i planned, and with that, I've learnt to take things in my stride and not make megative comments when i've yet to make an effort. And when i do make an extra effort, i don't give up that easily unless it proves pointless to continue persevering.

In 5 days time, we'll be freed of the community project that we've put so much time, effort, and most importantly, money, on.
In 13 days times, we'll be freed of all projects, presentation, assignments, and CAs.
In 17 days time, I'll set foot on the building on Genting Lane with the editorial team, i hope. So will the rest of the cohort at the respective companies.
In 98 days time, we'll graduate with a Media and Communication Diploma that will hopefully get me somewhere.

I've mixed feelings about graduating. Actually, the day comes in 2 weeks time, the friday before everyone separates for their internships. Separation occurs once again.
I've learnt a lot these years in polytechnic. I have to say i've never regretted taking this path cuz i know for sure i would regret if i went the other route.

Once again, we'll leave the emotional stuff for that day. For now, we'll enjoy each others' company and bask in joy everyday, minus the CAs.

Til then folks, tomorrow is another long day. Cheers to whatever makes us all happy! ;D

Hari Raya Visiting..

Hari Raya House-visitings...



Nina and Nity were kind enough to invite the De'Lites to their homes for yummilicious Hari Raya goodies and the sumptuous meals their grandparents and parents prepared. Not to forget the two girls helping out in the makings of the food, which they don't normally do.

Nina even shelled the prawns for us! And Nity fried the french beans and peeled the quail eggs! Rare? Gee..

On both days, we indulged in lots of good food, exciting gossips, and enjoyable photo-taking sessions. I love these kind of gatherings, we enjoy each other's company(I think..haha..)and all we have is fun while filling our stomachs.

We're already in the 3rd week of our last semester in this polytechnic. Another 3 more hectic weeks, and we'll all pack off to our respective internship companies. Some offices may be situated near enough for some to gather and have lunches together, sharing the latest news about this and that, while some others are away in far-away lands.

I'll miss the lunches we have everyday. I'll miss the never-ending talks and gossips. I'll miss the accompaniment. I'll miss the screaming, the fun, the fighting spirit, the good and bad times we shared, the emotional and psychological support, and everything that's etched up there in my brains.

This is like super cliche, but I just gotta say it. I really really hope we would remain in touch even in the future, like 5 or 10 years down the road. Alright, maybe we'll look at the nearer future, at least a few years? Surely it's worth more than that? I have no idea how much I'm cherished, if any in the first place, like the way I cherish others, all i'm aware of is that disappointment won't follow if there isn't any anticipation of returns.

Looking back, I realised I've changed, for the better, I hope. The experiences and exposures have taught me to always view things from a different point of view as things might not seem like what it is on the surface. Meeting different people from everywhere also enriched me in a way that I am more able to adapt to different people and try to understand other kinds of psychic.

I gotta say heaven has been kind to me by giving me classmates whom i can 'click' with. It might not be the whole class, but there'll always be some i can(or forcefully) call, 'My Clique". From V4 and "Seven Sisters" in primary school, HuiJuan and girls in secondary school, to De'Lites in the polytechnic. Whether I've left vague or deeply imprinted footsteps in your lifes, or even just a toeprint, you have left a print in my heart too. Whether we share more than a decade of friendship, whether we spend almost everyday together, whether we've spend just 10 minutes or less talking to each other in the whole time we know each other, or a simple two second "Hi-and-Bye" relationship, it is undeniable that in my book of life journey, somewhere, somehow, there is your print. I don't know if you'll rub off my imprints, but I won't rub yours off, because it records what happened at certain points in my life.

My computer failed me last night. Being entrusted with a task, it was an extremely bad time to fail. When i reached home from the discussion last night feeling pretty fulfilled that some work had been done, the computer decided to take a break and refused to restart. Taking for granted that the computer will always work for me in its life-time, I expected it to serve me well. I expected breaks from it at times, but not at this time. Mum then handed me the dinner she brought home from Granny's place, some dishes with my favourite soup, enough to make me glad. What's additional was a greeting card from Gu Ma(Aunt in Cantonese), as well as two Ang Baos from Gu Ma and Granny. As i opened the card, tears began to form in my eyes, ready to fall anytime. Seeing that the coast was clear from anyone else in the household, the droplets fell freely from the eyes to the chin, leaving a trail behind it. It was a card that contained a few simple yet meaningful words. Just the thought that they remembered this day was enough, the cards and Ang Baos were additional.

Gu Ma has always doted on me since I was a baby, even my name was given by her. Til now, i love my original name. I prefer people addressing me as HsuehChing, cuz i love the name my loving Gu Ma gave me. It means more than a name to me. Even if the word "Hsueh"-Snow in Mandarin, isn't a good word for names in FengShui, I don't care. 'Fiona' is just a name picked for convenience, nothing much more than that it seems. Images of her walking at the mall, carefully picking a greeting card just for me - her niece that had stucked to her from young who tends to keep her feelings to herself.

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To: 吳雪晴
Happy Birthday and be a good girl ok?
From: 姑妈
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V3 celebrated the day for me in advance today. Thank you so much for bothering and taking the trouble to celebrate this day with me for more than a decade without fail. I've never told you girls this, but I love all of you too. Having braved storms and facing hiccups together, it doesn't matter if we don't spend everyday together, you're always in my mind. The world isn't all rosy out there, but I know for sure that I can always fall back, and you'll catch me no matter how heavy I am. I insist. ;D

Ching-Sis, thanks for your willingness to spend time sewing the letters on needle by needle just for me, even if it had two letters missing. I appreciate it with my whole heart and will definitely cherish it more than gold. The days we meet in a year can probably be counted with my 10 fingers, but the friendship won't change. I hope the feeling is mutual. ;) Cher Mum, thanks for always listening to my complains and even ramblings, taking care of the little details and the willingness to do me favours and not expecting the returns. But don't be stubborn and do take care of yourself alright? Don't make us worry for you k? ;) Min Ah Ma, my best shopping, splurging, business, 'ah long', and scheming buddy. Together, we've planned numerous stuff, whether they're simply hilarious or some plan to protect some things we value. The things we've done together, the miles we've wallked, the paths we've treaded, the words we've spoken, the thoughts we've exchanged, everything is recorded and wouldn't be erased. Thanks for always bringing the smile back on when things seem bleak. ;)

You might not know the little things you've done that has touched and impacted me in certain ways, but do remember I Love You Gals always. Yes, I know it's mushy, but I don't say it often..So keep it in your safe deposit box k?

Well well, this entry wasn't meant to be what it ended up as right from the start, so i'll end this here for now...I'll leave these stuff for sometime later..Gee..

Til then folks..Cheers to good times and better times!~ ;)

The Weird Down

The Weird Down

Coincidentally or not, I've been thinking of the quote "There won't be disappointment if there's no expectation" too.

HuiJuan said things are looking good for me now after what seemed like gloomy days.

The date to mark my descend on earth is nearing, I used to get all excited about it just years ago. Perhaps what the adults said is true, as you get older, birthdays don't mean the whole world to you anymore cuz it's just another day where thousand other babies are borned. Partial excitement still lingers, but i dare not hope for more cuz i don't wana be left hanging.

Some of my best friends are making plans for me, with Cher ensuring me that i would love my present to bits if they manage to find it. HJ is also making the extra effort to invite the girls to the celebration and doing all the planning and stuff just for me. Mum is pretty excited about where we would dine on the day, my dad just gotten me an MP4 that i had long wanted as the present. The publishing giant just accepted me as an intern with them for 12 weeks, realising this hope of mine, with 'thank you(s)' here and there. I appreciate everything right down in my heart even if i don't express my thanks verbally. I officially resigned from the part-time job at the pasta place 6 hours ago so that i could have more time, whether for schoolwork or leisure. In general, things aren't too bad for me recently. In fact, it seems better than a while ago.

I should be happy and jumping with joy and getting all excited. I'm thankful and grateful for the everything i have presently. I should be..

I should be expecting and hoping for this and that, but i've decided that i will not. The higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment. Why is it proven right time and again?

I was chatting with one of the chefs at my work place 6 hours ago and from a simple topic, we went on to future expectations and endeavours. I told him about my wish to either go on further studies after graduating if circumstances permit, or get a job in the media where my interest lies. He said he aspired to be like an engineer or someone in that line like his cousin/friend who went to France for internship and is earning considerably well enough presently. But the aspiration was pulled back by various considerations and responsibilities, pursuing further studies doesn't seem very feasible right now where he's tied down. I then asked him if he would ever regret not pursuing his dreams when he sits in the rocking chair 40 years down the road if he gives up pursuing them, but i didn't get a definite answer. If i was posed with this question, i guess my answer would be "It depends. But as long as i've tried, i think i would be contended no matter how hard it is to let go. Since those were decisions made at that point of time due to circumstances and there's simply no way to turn the clock back, look ahead and smile. Relish in the bliss in your hands and be optimistic." Sure, talk is easy, but when it comes to action, it's a totally different matter.

Before I went out of the kitchen, this quote just slipped my mouth. "It's always good to have hopes and dreams." As i turned and walked out, i pondered over what i blabbered seconds ago. Yes, having hopes and dreams are no doubt good cuz it would propel you towards the goal. However, if halfway there you find yourself not advancing anywhere near your goal, is it time to give up, walk back to the starting line, chose a different route and push yourself forward all over again? Or should we simply persist bescause we don't wana let go after struggling to hold on that long? In the first place, are we even able to walk back and start all over again when time waits for no one?

Hopes, dreams, expectations, anticipations. Can we fixed them back if they're smashed like how the king's horses and men tried to fix Humpty Dumpty back?

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle. It's mixed and you'll try to match no matter what, piecing it together the seemingly right way, ocassionally tripping over stones and bumping into rocks. At the end of the day, you'll get the picture.

Down, down, and under. My mood's rather down, but it swings like nobody's business whenever it likes. I can be fooling around talking rubbish and getting 'high' for no concrete reason one moment, or start shedding tears over the simpliest things the next. Hopefully it's just pms causing the queer mood swings and not depression taking place.

Very often, i wish time could slow down for me to catch up before speeding off again. Like rine, I feel odd too that i have to spend my supposedly-special day in school. Other than clashing with the GCE "O" levels E.Mathematics Paper 1 three years ago, it had always fallen on the holidays without fail. Maybe that's the main reason why the mood to celebrte isn't there for me.

Weird feeling, just weird, it's an indescribable feeling...

I've learnt to let go of expectations recently, cuz i know without high expectations, or no expectations as a whole, life would be filled with more pleasant surprises.

Til then folks.. I'll liven up when it's appropriate and when it really comes from within. Who knows? I might be laughing away the next second before this piece is published. Cheers to future whole-hearted smiles on faces of everyone around me. They always say "Tomorrow will be a better day," isn't it? We'll see.. ;T

Ambush Chalet - September 26, 27, 28, 2005

Ambush Chalet - September 26, 27, 28, 2005

Photos and brief account of the Ambush Chalet held at Aloha Loyang Resort on September 26, 27, 28, 2005 as promised more than a fortnight ago.


It was a pretty hectic day as I rush down from home in a cab to the prospective publishing giant in formal wear for the interview which came with a grueling 2 hours paper that sort of reminded me of the GCE "O" levels paper I took 3 freaking years ago. Kind old Cheryl had to pick up my luggage from my house before meeting me at City Hall. Like someone who's going away on a trip to Thailand, she lugged 2 bolster bags and waddled all the way from Boon Lay to City Hall to meet the girl in formal wear who only had a pretty light document bag with her - me.

Carrying the luggage into the East West MRT line towards the east side in formal wear, I seem perfectly suited to go straight to Changi Airport for a business trip. Then again, if i was going on a business trip, a cab ride to the airport is for sure since it'll be on the company.(Muahahaha..)

Resembling a business-woman who just came back from New York from a meeting seeking some spa and resort, minus the glamour and duty-free alchohol, the fake-business woman trodded with her luggage and inexpensive leather bag down the non air-conditioned bus together with her kind old Cheryl and reached the resorts in no time.

Since the guys who had checked in earlier had a car and the sky was getting darker by the second, it didn't seem like there was a second best option than to get them to fetch us to the chalet which would have easily cost us a freaking 15 minutes or more walking down what seemed like a deserted road to the destination.

So the first few hours went by easily as we settled down and played the childhood game - Uno! Oh yes, we cooked a few packet of instant noodles too, only to receive bad comments from the guys that the noodles weren't fully cooked. Hey, that wasn't from me ok!

And what's wrong with cooking instant noodles in the microwave? Don't the manufacturers recommend this fast and hassle-free method? Ok ok, i think it's enough, or Vernon will roll his eyes and Jiayong will want to marry kind old Cheryl because she's the only one who cooks instant noodles the conventional way.

When the crowd came in after work, almost everyone went out to the hall to gamble with real cash. Cheryl and I remained in the air-conditioned room equipped qith double-decker beds which could sleep four adults, and played Uno in the room for donkey knows how many hours, interweaving some other old school games in between, and having guest players now and then.

In a flash, (ok, that's exaggerating but i'm fast forwarding. It's supposed to be a brief account, remember?) before the sun rose high in the sky again, we decided to catch its glamour at during much hyped sunrise. At 6:20am, Cheryl, Vincent and I made our way to the beach, taking the what seemed like a deserted road which was the only route that i know of to the beach. It's definitely not surprising that the streets and paths were almost in total silence except for the insects, birds, animals, and occasional voices from the early birds and it seem pretty eerie but the safety in numbers(small number though) sort of pushed the spooky thoughts away. And i admit that i've never thought of seeking adventure at the "Red House", much less gone there. I have to say i'm rather timid these days. The last horror movie i watched was Dark Waters, what do you say? Don't laugh!

The spooky feeling soon vanished when the fresh air at the beach greeted us, the waves saying 'hi' to us as they hit against the wooden plank below gently. Birds flew in synchronised manners, chirping merrily as they cheer their mates on to fly alongside them to greener pastures.

Like silly gooses, we waved to the shore across and shouted out the names of the people we know who're in Tekong, all because we thought it seems like Pulau Tekong. Doesn't matter if it wasn't, our minds weren't really clear yet in the wee morning hours.

When the sun greeted us with a full risen body, it marked the second day of the chalet. The rest either scrambled to the empty beds of those who have woken, or find a comfortable spot anywhere to catch a wink or two. When we announced of our plans to go cycling, they commented that Cheryl and I were hyperactive and that our energy was never used up. Well, not true. Just that i come to a chalet not to sleep all day, neither am i interested in gambling anyway, so going out and planning our own activities when all the rest were in slumber/gambleland was the best way to entertain ourselves.

From Aloha Loyang, i directed Cheryl to the other end of Pasir Ris park and I noticed great improvement in her cycling skills. Although she fell once, it was serious enough for tough old Cheryl to sustain any serious injuries. The other side of Pasir Ris evoked memories our our inaugural Tanglin Primary School outing which is the most successful one we had organised to date. If only the gathering this year would be less pathetic than the previous year's. Tell me I'm not being too optimistic.

Cycling in the morning was really relaxing and therapeutic. My lungs told me they felt cleansed and were more able to provide me with fresher air if i bask in the morning fresh air more often. Sadly, i am unable to accede to my lungs pleas for unpolluted air everyday as my neighbour whom recently moved in has a tendency to smoke at home, not knowing his smoke would trail through my gates and harm my poor fragile lungs. Since the smoke mercilessly tortures my little lungs, my hands do the honours and slam the door mercilessly(just enough to make a noise, not too rudely loud though) too. Over time, it seemed that my neighbour understood the signal and began smoking away from the compounds where at least 8 children under the age of 12 stayed. Thanks! (Even if he won't read this. I appreciate the occasional consideration.)

(Fast-forward>>>>>>>>>Fast forward) Then night fell once again, and it was time for the BBQ. They only attempted to start the fire at 9pm(yes, you heard right, 9PM)when most of the people would be arriving. But the clouds above decided not to coorperate after a while and started crying continuously and interupted our BBQ. Fortunately, there was fried bee hoon to feed the hungry stomachs as we wait for the clouds to be pacified.


'Crazy' people then came up with crazy games with forfeits to make passing time easier. "Lucky" me got to be the 'King' twice, as well as the person for forfeit twice. Dancing wasn't a problem, but the other forfeit was a little hard with more than a dozen pair of eyes staring at you despite attempted darkness. I was pretty kind when i was the 'king' and only made Gavin carry Leong, and Cheryl and Christina dance the Pole dance.(Now that sounds rather mild huh..)The other 'Kings' was much crazier!


Everyone entered the ladies room to hide while a few distract the birthday boy in another room while some lighted the cakes and got everyone ready to sing. "Happy Birthday to you....."


Since the majority were present, it would be a pity if this 'Kodak moment' wasn't captured.


The bulk left with Jiayong forgetting totally about his almost brand new huge bottle of Listerine in the bathroom and only a handful left to guard the chalet. Fortunately the Guitar man Gavin stayed and provided us with dozens of tunes to sing and hum to while Magician Vernon caught the chance to show his magic tricks once again and I managed to learn one trick after countless attempts in the room with some others who scratched our heads off to get the gist of the trick.


Ah Bang kindly set up the fire at the BBQ pit once again when the rain completely stopped and fed us with tons of satay and yummy chicken wings. After eating, we began showing habits of a pig and felt sleepy. Unable to find a bed to sleep on, i started packing my bag, ready for check out the next morning. But i kept dozing off while packing, only to be awaken by the creaking of the door, and falling back asleep. When the sun appeared fully in the sky, i thought it would be good to bring myself and my mobile phone(See, over-reliance on technology..Hahaha) for a morning stroll. Silly me forgot the insect repellent but no black and white stripe mosquito found me that morning, thankfully...

Armed with only my mobile which is not intelligent enough to get into the Gifted stream but still as lovely, i managed to take some post card worthy pictures that i thought was really nice.. As i strolled to the pool while waiting forthe small gate to be unlocked for instant access to the beach, i hanged around the poolside and this kitty friend passed by, purring at me as if it was saying "Good Morning!". What's amazing was when i was back from the beach and wandered around the other chalets, this kitty passed by again and like greeting an old friend, it purred again. Whenever i said something, it would reply with a 'meow', as if it understands. Gee..Lovely kitty..Love ya kitty! Hope you're leading a good life without worries kitty! ;)


Alright, i think what happened when i hit the station after we checked out is obvious. Cheryl and I knocked out and fell asleep all the way from east to west. Clocked another 7.5 hours of sleep after reaching home and carried on into the night after dinner, just like how you describe the lifestyle of a pig.

More updates soon..

Til Then Folks..Cheers!~

First Day of school, Last semester of the Diploma course

Just some random thoughts..

It's the first day of school for the last semester of our Diploma in Media and Communication. In no time at all, every single one of us would walk away with the certificate, regardless of its value or worth. Different individuals view its worth definitely, but i dare say it isn't at all useless, we learn different values and thoughts from different things and people.

It's amazing how people from all walks of life, all kinds of upbringing, all kinds of backgrounds, all kinds of values and thoughts, come together and learn from each other. True, learning the truth hurts sometimes, but isn't how growing up and facing the world is?

The world isn't always rosy, nothing comes naturally, nothing should be taken for granted. When we were kids, the adults could protect us from undesirable materials from everywhere and keep us from harm. As we grow up, the adults no longer have that much ability to protect us, and it's all up to ourselves, to protect ourselves. Some are borned with golden spoons, while some with wooden ones. Everyone is given a chance into the world.

My secondary teacher used to tell us, "Everyone is a winner right from the start when you were just a tadpole since you made it through harsh conditions to emerge the winner in the swimming race."

Well, maybe yes. Maybe no. Some lead lifes that're so comfortable that money drops from the sky while some are borned just to suffer. Then, i start to question what's life about, though i never get the answer. Perhaps someday i'll be enlightened, perhaps...

Some random thoughts here and there, nothing concrete, no summary, no lead paragraph, no execuetive summary, no agenda.

Thoughts come in easily when i'm bathing, a considerable amount of people said that bathing is the time when you're most relaxed. That is also partly why many sing better in the bathroom than in the ktvs. Bleargh..

Sometimes i think i think too much for my own good. Well, horoscope experts say this is the character of a scorpion. I sort of believe in horoscopes cuz i see myself in some other scorpions. It's pretty scary actually, to see yourself in others. The similiar behaviours, similiar thoughts. It's as though we can predict each other's next move, then again, the other party might just change its mind.

Mysterious, is another characteristics of typical scorpions. Pretty true for me huh? I once mentioned i don't take down my facade that easily, but when i do, i give my whole heart and please do reciprocate or else what's left of the scorpion would be the tail-where it's poisonous, heartless, and nothing but cruel.

Personally, i think i lack a very good point of most scorpions-confidence, sometimes even arrogance. I lack confidence. Confidence in myself, confidence in the work i produced. I was shock by the grade of my "O" level English(not that it was a 1), and thought it was 'by luck', it never chanced upon me that my work would be recognised. I would love to get my script back, and take a look at how the stormy weather on the day the paper was taken had gotten me into 'the mood' for writing.

I like being a scorpion. Prefably a cold-blooded one. A Chinese proverb says "Good begets good". Sometimes, i can't help but doubt. I don't expect any rewards from any good. Good comes from within. Often or not, my good is not returned with good. I shall not go on and harp on how reality is cruel cuz i've done that some time ago.

Big plans should come in place soon, i hope. "Time is running out, no more dragging HsuehChing, you're lagging. Lagging far far behind. Where's the HsuehChing with the fighting spirit? Where? Where? Where?"

Where, I have no idea.

A stone or an unpolished gemstone? You decide.

"Enough of aimless rambling HsuehChing, you're getting boring"

"Yes, i agree."

So i shall end this post with some comments on the first day of school and plans for the rest of the week.

The 2 hours tutorial didnt feel like a tutorial, instead, it felt like a gossip session with some technology topics inter-weaving here and there. It was pretty fun and time passed quickly, hopefully future lessons would pass that easily too, not that i'm that anxious to get out of here since my internship placement hasn't been confirmed. (Speaking of which, I'm darn nervous!) And we have a class blog just for the module, how cool is that?

Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday shall be shelved for working, which meant money! Muahahaha..

Friday is reserved for a feast! Double Muahahahaha...

Alright, that's the end of my rambling session. See, random enough huh? I hereby wish everyone a good health alongside good financial status and good companions. (I seriously am going crazy.)

Til then folks...Cheers to budding Media and Communication Professionals..Muahahaha..;) (Someone just slap me awake!)<---Kidding..

Grandma has recovered fully from the darn mosquito's bite, and she's as healthy as ever now. Grandpa has also recovered form a minor operation. Phew.. Thank god..

Have just retuned from a chalet held by the people at my work place. It had been pretty fun, minus awkward forfeits..gee.. and to think i was 'lucky' enough to have to had to do the forfeit twice. It was fun though, the Uno, Uno, Uno, and nothing else but Uno for me cuz i don't have the luck for gambling games like mahjong and blackjack and don't wish to lose my hard-earned money like that. I would rather spend the money than lose it cuz i know myself, i wouldn't win money. So, i dutifully stuck to games that were suitable for even children, UNO. Bam!

Am exhauted from deprivation of sleep for 2 nights consecutively, but isn't that what's chalet about? Staying up, having fun, sing-a-long, cycling, watching the sunrise, bbq-ing, and some attempts to win/lose money through games..

Have been falling asleep almost everywhere these 2 days. In Grandma's house, in Grandmother's house, in the car, on the sofa, anywhere. Wherever i can lean my head on, i'll fall asleep..Gee..Perhaps this is what they call replenishing.

Photos are finally uploaded.. Details in next entry..Hopefully.. ;)

Til then folks.. ChEeRs to the last semester!~

Yet another victim..

My grandma had fallen prey to the horrible dengue fever. We brought her in on Sunday night after incessant vomitting from Sunday afternoon, thinking the fever was brought about exhaustion from taking care of my Grandfather, hopping between home and Alexandra Hospital everyday for almost 2 continuous weeks.

After 10 blood extractions, 5 days of blood test, the doctor-in-charge finally confirmed with us that it's dengue fever. They told us that the giddiness was due to a lack of sodium initially and we thought things should be fine once the fever subsides. Grandma's fever has since subsided, but the darn mosquito bite continues to torture pure grandma. Doctors say there's no cure for dengue fever, and it's all up to the patient's constitution and will power to recover.

Old wives tales mentioned that water boiled with goat's horn would help. Grand-uncle and uncle drank the goat's horn water on a daily basis and had recovered from dengue fever too. I don't know how true it is, but since 2 have gone through it and recovered through this methos and it poses no harm, why not?

Well, I think besides medicine and some strength our faith gives us, moral support is important. I believe the best way for the patient to pass time and recover is for the family and friends to keep up the spirits and not sob and give up hope. Being optimistic makes life easier?

Guan Yin Niang Niang and all gods, please allow my grandmother to recover very soon and be able to get home soon. Grandpa relies a lot on Grandma to take care of him, but since grandma has to stay in the hospital for a certain period now, it's now the duty of the children and grandchildren to take care of both the elderly.

Dengue Fever is a killer, a great danger cuz you never know when the darn mosquito would strike. Thus, my dear friends and family members, please do take precautions like spraying insect repellent all over yourself, it doesn't matter if you stink from it, safety is more important. Oh yes, and wear more cloth, firstly, it will prevent you from a cold, secondly, it might help cuz denim might be a tad too thick for the darn mosquito.

Til then folks...Take care of yourselves ya..

Swim, Swim, Swim like a dog...

Swim, Swim, Swim like a dog...

I finally went on my much awaited swimming trip on Wednesday because Cheryl Mummy could not bear to see Little Ching throwing tempers for not bringing her to the pool for dinosaur years...

Who cares if i don't have the figure to don a swimsuit meant to kill? Who cares if I can't swim to save my life? Who cares if my hair will be harmed from the chlorine?

Putting asides all constrains, I pulled cheryl along with me to the pool at the Jurong East Sports Complex which we have not stepped into for T-rex years. Once we stepped into the place, heaven decided to play a trick on us and started crying cuz it didn't want to see me in a scanty swimsuit. However, we refused to give up and threatened heaven's decision with a KFC meal. Thankfully, heaven wipe its teared and released the sun once again so i could burn some unnecessary fats from the sinful lunch.

Whenever V4 went to the pool, our decision would normally be to keep the purple note safe in our wallets rather then throwing it in for yellow doughnut-like floats. But Cher n I decided to give a purple note up each this time so we could float without much effort. (Which defeated my main purpose of burning some unnecessary fats..Hmm..nope, i swam too actually..haha..)

Enjoyment wise, we definitely had our fill. We pretended to be kids once again and even paid for the child's fare.(For their pricing table, child's fare is meant for people under 18 years-old. Hey, I'm just a year over, I guess it's alright? Muahahaha..) We gave our weight to the floats and drifted round the lazy pool for more than an hour. Pretty amazing huh? How apt. The lazy pool for lazy people. Perfect.

Imagination brought us to 'WONDERland'. Cher was spiderman(girl actually) in the classic red and blue tight-fitting suit, while I was some ancient fairy with a costume full of dangling ribbons here and there. The spider-girl spewed cobwebs with a mere twist of the wrist and the fingers, while the fairy flies with one hand in front with the 'lotus-fingers' formation, fending herself with shots of ribbons from the sleeves with a mere twist of the wrists and fingers too. (Hey! So spiderman copied the ancient fairies' action? Hmmm...)

The man-made waves at the Wave pool seem longer than usual. Everytime the waves pushed us further in, we struggled hard to swim back to safer grounds though no matter how hard i kicked, we seem to get stucked at the same spot, not forgetting a bunch of boys constantly blocking our path to safer grounds. After the 'ordeal', our hands both ached from the gripping of our floats.(My arms are still aching from it..)

Then came the slides.. The longest slide wasn't open so we compromised and took the second best. It was fun no doubt, and we slide down the pink slide twice. Once a face-on flop into the water, and another successful stunt on the second attempt.

The sun then changed its colour, marking the end of the day with a warm cheerful orange, beckoning me to return to home sweet home.

Til then folks... Cheers to increasing funds for my long-awaited 5566 2005 concert! WooHoo!~

Nothing really important...

Nothing really important...

We've come to the 4th week of our holidays unknowingly. I've done nothing significant during these few weeks except being a potato couch armed with the SCV set-top box with engaging programmes, a computer with internet access, a job which only allows me to work twice a week, an irritating but pretty fun brother, a constantly shouting mother, busy friends who have tight schedules who spare a few days with me for ferocious shopping trips, an adorable little 5 year-old pink teddy bear courtesy of Huimin, a 14 year-old pillow dear grandma sewed for me as a little girl which had been through storms and hurricanes with me, a few library books for some good reading courtesy of mum and Huimin's library cards due to my carelessness which led to a good $15.25 fine, and most importantly, a house to slump in.

I wish to go swimming, but i don't wana go alone and risk drowning with no one to save me. I wana go shopping, but my shopping-mates are busy with their lives, plus my twice-a-week-job income doesn't permit me to spend like i'm a rich girl. I wana go cycling, again, no one's free to play with this poor little girl. Fortunately, V4 is planning a day of fun-filled activity-packed day next week in hope of gathering the "Bball gang", or so we called this group of friends who came together every week 3 years ago to play bball at St Margeret's compound. We're gonna go cycling, kite-flying, and gobbling seafood from the steamboat, Yeah! I'm so looking forward to it man!. I wana pack my stuff, but i guess this lazy feel that comes alongside holidays restrict me.

I wana plan for the annual Tanglin Primary School's Class 6A 1998 gathering, but it's hard to even start with the obstacles ahead with some being coming up with excuses even i can't comprehend. Some say they don't have spare moolah, fine! You can sit there with a cup of plain water, its free. Some say they're not free to come, fine! I asked for opinions on the dates that are feasible, but only a few kind souls replied. If you cant make it on the dates suggested, voice it! Excuses, pure excuses. People can stir up any rubbish just to get away. The numbers are declining year by year. From a good 20+, to a mere 10. From a full day gathering, to just a few hours for dinner. Surely it isn't that hard?

I once told a friend, "If you treasure this/these people enough, you wouldn't even think of not going." I strongly adhere to this thought. It came as a passing thought, but stayed on stuck to my mind.

I'll open the invite to all as usual, but whether they do sincerely come in the hope of meeting us, the old friends of a decade, it's purely up to them. We, the organisers are tired, and sick of lame excuses. Don't ask me how lame the excuses are cuz you'll know an excuse is made up once you hear it. Fine with me if you don't wana come, it's not as if i have to beg you to come. Shoo! Bleargh...

However, i'm glad i'm doing something significant to change my life, the way i look, my confidence, and my health. Don't expect too much though, it's still at the infancy stage. Nothing obvious as yet.

Oh yes, and my English has been certified at 2.25pm on 11 July 2005. It's not coming back until it has toured the world in perhaps 80 days so you can expect me to write rubbish and broken English for sometime, rest assure i won't use lianguage though. I don't know how i got that first letter of the alphabets for my "O" levels for it, now, how long ago was that? 3 years? Woah, that's how fast time passes.

Yea, so that's my life at the moment. Perhaps this will not be for long, cuz De'Lites has got a major presentation to prepare for in hope of some prizes..Hmmm...

Well, so that's all for now folks..a boring read huh?

Til then folks... Cheers to engaging Korean and Hong Kong dramas! ;)

DMC/3A/05 Class Gatherings 2005

It was fun, fun ,fun, some food, and laughter at the 2005 DMC/FT/3A/05 Class BBQ/Chalet. Here's what we did:

On the way after hours of buying and marinating the chicken wings, the prawns, and the sotongs...


Waiting for the fire to be started and finally, for the wings to be ready for consumption...


The first batch of wings were finally edible after what seems like hours of waiting alongside ferocious growling stomachs...


Class photos... How long have we not taken a class photo outside school time? Don't we look happy together? Smile!!!!~~~ Bare your whites!~


Nity and Nina managed to climb up the tall block with the help of the guys, only to find it hard getting down later on...


With some fabulous Escada Rockin' Rio, we bade goodbye to the BBQ smell on our clothes and bade the rest goodbye while they go on for another two days of fun at the chalet...


Til then folks...Cheers to more great days!~ Great days are simply welcomed aren't they? ;)

5566-Padang-Autograph Session-17 Sept 2005

Holidays are finally here!

5566 Padang-Autograph Session-17 Sept 2005





Fuji Ice Palace - De'Lites Ice Skating - 16 September 2005



Chinese Garden - Lantern Safari 2005 - 15 September 2005





Have done nothing significant for my life but have been enjoyig life pretty much. Shopping sprees, outings, good food, reading, VCDs, DVDs, SCV, SCV, and SCV... I pretty much like slacking around during the holidays. Isn't this what's holidays are meant to be like?

Well, just enjoying life before getting into serious stuff meanwhile..nothing concrete, no plans either. My brains are taking a break..

C'est la vie!~

Life is a mystery

Life is a mystery

You never know what will charge at you the next moment.

Someone whom you thought is your friend might kill you the next moment.
Something which you think was safe might bite you the next moment.
Somewhere which you think was safe might prove you wrong the next moment.
Sometimes when you think everything's moving smoothly, someone, something somewhere might just kill that thought the next moment.

Dad asked me this question during dinner, "How long do you think this friendship would last?"

I put everything aside and thought for a few moments and I couldn't put a definite answer to it. The commitment, the heart, the thoughts, and the feelings all matters. Life is so unpredictable, no one knows what's going to happen the next second.

A friend once said that he/she would clear his/her contact lists every now and then. Someday, my name would go through the "Delete Contact" fate too.

As I learn of the harshness and cruelty of the real world, the world seems a disgusting place to be in. Despite the warmth surrounding us which we conveniently forget about from time to time, the world is a sickening place. Without these minimal warmth, the world should just crash.

I get scared. The media never fails to throw us tons of dramas where people scheme against each other. Real or reel? This current show I'm watching about palace life depicts two seemingly close sworn sisters scheming against each other to get to being the top concubines. On the surface they interact just like blood-sisters, while behind their backs, one is harming the other and vice versa. Palace life has expanded from the palace to modern day society. I guess the animal instinct jumps out at you when you're at a lost. "Kill whatever stops you from getting what you want"

I thought the person was a good person, but the person proves me wrong and shows me the evil side.
I thought i could rely on the person, but the person proved unreliable.
I thought i could believe in myself, but I prove myself wrong.
I thought things were going smoothly, but i'm wrong.
I thought everything was great, but I was wrong.
I thought it didn't matter, but i was wrong.
I thought the world is simply beautiful, but i was wrong, the evil within does not reveal itself unnecessarily.

I tend to judge people over a period of time. My judgement fails me at times, that's where the sad part comes in. There's a reason why I warm up to a person that slow, because i feel the need to understand, or at least get an understanding of how the person operates before the facde is taken now gradually. I can't bear my heart without an armour, for i know some pirate will stab their swords mercilessly when i'm not careful.

"You've to be careful about everything," isn't life tiring?

My Dad says there's a significant change in the way i speak and behave. He says i've become arrogant. I insisted that's the way the youths communicate and behave now. He replied saying his colleagues who are a mere 5 years older than I am don't speak that way. But I insisted it's surprising that the behaviour and lingos differ from year to year.

The world changes every second, so does humans.

Why make other's life difficult when you don't want yours to be made difficult by others? SELFISHness kicks in. Everyone is selfish. No one can declare themselves free from this. I'm selfish at times, or rather most of the times, i won't deny because it's a fact, nothing but the truth. We all want the best for ourselves and our loved ones. "Who cares about others".

If you think in a negative way, nothing on earth is worth the chance to live. Thoughts of suicide floats pasts one's mind. Various reasons pull the thought away.

I used to think suicide is but a foolish act which only brings pain and sufferings to the living who loves you. Now it seems like a brave act, though still selfish and foolish nonetheless when some others are fighting so hard jusy to keep their lives.

I am glad and thankful for who I am and what i have now.

My Dad hates people to tell him what to do, so do I.

"Press that button for water."
"Ok"
"Understand?"
"Yes"
"You really get it?"
"Yes"
"Are you sure you can do it?"
"YES! (Yes yes yes, i told you yes. Do you think i'm a plain idiot or do you think i'm dumb? When i say i understand, it means i do. If i don't i'll ask. Enough is enough. I live through my education for a reason.)

Perhaps this is a sudden outburst, a fleeting thought, or a built-up. I don't wish to care that much.

Life is tiring.
Life is a struggle.
Life can be beautiful.
Life can be ugly.
Life can be improved.
Life is pre-determined.
Life is what you think.
Life is all about going through birth, aging, illness, and death.
When you've walked to the last step, you'll enter a wooden bed just enough to fit your shoulders in and rest in there til your body decomposses.

Life is such. I'm gonna make my life better. Suicide will never be an option. Since Life's such, i shall make it good.

It will be good. In 60 years time, i'll sit in my rocking chair with my husband and dog by the fireplace, sewing jackets for my grandchildren and thinking of the young and sweet times. Great music drifts through the room as we sip our coffee, looking out at the green pastures occassionally. Our grandchildren running around with the puppies and goats. I'll invite my dearest confidents everyday just to have high tea and gossip and bitch about even at our age. Life will be excellent. It will.

Life will never get me down. I'll pat the dust away when i fall and rise to my feet in the shortest possible time.

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman. Somehwere in the middle, somewhere at the crossroad, faced with the harsh reality, the cruel society, but i will survive.

You never know what a female scorpion might do.

Til then folks... Tomorrow should be a better day, that's what hopefuls say all the time. I wish for everyday to be a better day too. Cheers to endless better days!

We Simply Rock Don't We?

We Simply Rock Don't We?





"We kick ass!" Carine would say.
"Yea man!" Clarice would say.
"Alright!~" Nina would say.
"We rock man!" Winoa would say.
"Of course, we're De'Lites!" Nity would say.
"WooHoo!~" I would say.




**Logos created in personal capacity, does not represent agency.

P.S: Photos changed, all photos from my Sony camera. Please inform me if you do not wish for your photo to be published and it'll be replaced with a Smiley.

Til Then Folks...We'll continue rockin'! Cheers!~

I'm in a BAD mood!

I'm in a very BAD MOOD! Don't ask me why.. I'm just in a foul mood.

It might be because:

1) Mummy and Brother's out for a good dinner tonight, but i'm stuck here with some damn theories
2) Daddy's out with colleagues for a game of badminton, but i'm stuck here with some damn theories
3) Two nights without sleep for damn reports, but i'm still stuck here with some damn theories
4) I should be in high spirits because school has officially ended for this semester for us, but i'm still stuck here with some damn theories
5) I wana go swimming, cycling, shopping, and singing, but I"M STILL STUCK HERE WITH SOME DAMN THEORIES!

Enough!!!!!

Fcuk!

You get it..

Til Then Folks... NO Cheers.. :<

A tree just sacrificed itself in order for me to get 20 marks(or less) for just a module.

All the printing had caused my dear printer to vomit blood so many times that it has run out of blood.

Type type type, print print print, bind bind bind...

Have you ever wondered how many trees have been chopped just for our assignment and projects alone? I dare not imagine.

A practical world that is...


I won't be surprised if one day all lands become barren lands when all trees are all chopped down, we're on the way anyway. Humans... Then again, who am I to say we're wasting resources when I myself is doing the same things? Bleargh...

Anyway, i came across some pictures of gorgeous golden retrievers and decided to brighten your day, or rather, my day although it's evening now...

Oh yes, i guess i dont have to circle the picture of the dog and inform you that "This is a dog." Do I?







Simply gorgeous aren't they?

Til then folks..Cheers to a few more days of studying til the holidays..WooHoo!~

80% of the world's trade is still done by sea today.

Every 2 months, a bulk carrier disappears from the vast sea with total loss of life.

[Quote from Discovery Channel]

That's how scary Mother Nature can be. Perhaps, everything is due to fate.

You've heard of stories of how survivors escape from disasters.

A woman called in sick and a few minutes later her colleagues perish with the world's once tallest twin towers.

A man fell ill and did not board the ship he was supposed to be on. Days later, the killer sea walloped Derbyshire together with all his once colleagues. Ahoy! Mates disappeared from his dictionary from then on.

A lady got stucked in a traffic jam and missed her flight. Hours later, the plane crashed, bringing all passengers down with it.

A struck of fate, the game in the hands of heaven. You live, you die.

Sure, i would like to believe that fate is controlled by humans and that you get anything you want just by fighting for it, but sometimes you just have to believe in it. Humans can never go against nature. It's a fact proven time and again but humans choose to ignore the warning signs and continue destroying earth. I will admit that I'm not a noble citizen of Planet Earth, I do pursue certain luxuries like other normal human being of right-thinking humans.

Sometimes i have no idea why should there even be living things on earth when all will perish one day. For a taste of the flavours of life? Perhaps...

Projects, Deadlines, Projects, Deadlines, Projects, Deadlines, Individual Reports, Deadlines, Tests, Deadlines......

That's pretty much what's in for me at the moment. So much so that my brains are beginning to protest and threatening to quit its job unless I give it some therapy.

Well, been going on some retail therapy these days. Minor sprees, but money just seems to flow out of my poor wallet without hesitating. I'm always hoping the 'future money' that i'm working for will refill the vacancies but in vain. In fact, my brains tell me that it's alright to spend now and refill later. Bad. Really Bad. Someone please stop me from spending unnecessary money. What's the chance. Bleargh!

Anyway, 2 and a half more week of school and it's semester breaks. The time to have fun and earn money as well, plus some time to slow down my steps and really plan for my future. My future...sometimes i wonder how would it be. Let it be excellent in a very good way please.

2 more weeks of school this semester, one and a half months of holidays, 6 weeks of school for 2 modules, 3 months of internship at a hopefully good place, and off we go on to another phase of our lives with that piece of paper in our hands.

Time waits for no one. How true, I still remember the first taste of polytechinic life. I made a big circle and found the right clique willing to accept me - The De'Lites. Polytechnic life wouldn't be fun and extravagant without them.

I love the talks we always have almost everyday, it's eye-opening how different views come together. It's fun how we gossip and bitch like nobody's business. It's amazing how we came from different upbringings, different backgrounds, different schools, different families, different languages, different races, different religions, and we respect each other.

Okay, it's becoming like a thank you speech...Haha..

Cheers to a better tomorrow!

Til then folks.. ;)

"Money, please roll freely into my bank account so i can continue spending like this...Thank you..."

15 August 2005 - HuiJuan's Birthday Celebration at Pasta Cafe


16 August 2005 - Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao at Holland Village


Cheers to potential rolling money...and to Huijuan's birthday! Happy Birthday 19th Ah Jian! Hope it was an enjoyable time for you and everyone! ;)

"Snap snap snap..."



A day of shopping and snapping...

"Snap snap snap" went my lovely Sony camera though it's not as good as it's higher-tech cousins. "Don't worry camera, I still love you..."

I've started talking to non-living things a lot. My bear, my pillow, my mp3 player, my tv...the list goes on... Not forgetting to the other me in the mirror as well. It never fails to cheer me up when i get a new accessory for my mobile. Gee...

The world has been spinning for as long as it can be. As slow as it seems, time surpasses the feeling, leaving you behind with no mercy. Sometimes you stop at a crossroad, confuse as to which direction you want to move on.

"Where?"

"I have no idea."

Perhaps it's time to slow down our pace of life and think about the slightest and often neglected things in our lives.

Have you ever tilted your head to appreciate the stars in the sky?

Do you reflect on what you've done for the day before you set off for slumberland?

Have you ever wondered about the wonders and power of nature?

Have you ever come to a conclusion as to whether the egg or the chicken comes first?

Have you thought of why the mediocre things in life happen?

Well...

Til Then Folks... Cheers to another day..They do say tomorrow will be a better day right?