yr 1 photo...

geez...this was the photo we took a year ago..how fun it was then...everyone juz enjoyed it...rite?...rite...

how long have we not taken a full class photo? ages...so long tt i miss it...even the class in the class photo for the yearbook wasnt complete...how sad...how can like tt....wait nex time 40 yrs later i take out the book, blow off the dust coated on top, and sneeze as the dust flew to my sensitive nose, sitting on my rocking chair n sipping my coffee...flippin thru the pages... "What! how come my class like got who missing?"...but wait too old... cant rem who already...aiyo...

geez...faster take more pictures again k...it's already yr 2...time speeds faster than light when it's fun..i regretted not takin enough photos when i was in pri n sec sch...how i wished i had taken more pictures den..i oni had those few pix for my memory...geez...tts y i like to take a lot of pix nowadays...the diff expressions, diff pple, diff occasions, diff faces, diff places...how interesting...geez...

today...

after sch, me, nity n shellen went to the Connect event...i din wan to play the games..juz call me anti-social..geez...at times i juz feel like hiding in a corner n seeing others have fun...deem it as wat i feel comfortable wif...for some times...

i was in chinese dance club(hey, i had accepted weight den...) n drama club in pri sch den 2 yrs in choir in sec til it finally "close-down" cuz there juz isnt enough pple...how sad..enjoyed the group singing..*sob*...so i dun exactly have stage fright..juz need some accompany...geez...but plz dun ask me to perform when i dun feel like it...or the feelin juz isnt right...it'll feel weird...geez..

we left like after being there for juz 20 or 30 mins...geez...felt a little bad...leaving juz like tt...din c any performance at all...but i really din wan to participate in the games...i was really tired n bothered by all the projs, hw, n tests...my legs juz took me away..geez...excuses...

n my remaining pay nv comes...my tt supervisor keeps avoiding my calls...n dun tink i'll let u off k...i will get back wat i deserve..juz u wait...let me learn my law n i'll get back...well well, i'm a revengeful person..cuz i'm a scorpio...i wun forget the kindness to me...n i certainly WUN forget wat harm is done to me by whoever...whether minor or major...i like peace...but sometimes it doesnt work..one has to be tough to survive in this world...i believe...of course, not everything in this world is cold..there is still much warmth...hmmm...

Argh!!!...gotta rush my FW article now...geez...muz force myself to do it or i'll nv finish...dun even noe wat i'm writing in the article...geez...

phew..okie..at least we brainstormed some ideas..can be counted as halfway thru...after i become the recorder, i din say much cuz my brains n hands were busy recording the stuff....geez...gotta multi-task...haha..

v tiring...so many projects to tink of..plus the 2 CAs coming up so soon...gonna go crazy...

so there're 3 proj on hand...MMR( singapore youths n their mobile lifestyles), ECM(online assignment n proj on Online virtual makeovers), DMA( on-camera presentation of the movie, editing of 90 sec promotional clip)...

plus 2 CAs which r soooo near...LSC on sat n CB on nex mon...*faint*

geez....

My mp3 player..geez...

WoOhOo..tis is my latest baby..it's a Hyundai MP3 player...it comes with a complimentary transister radio...and yes, its "HYundai" not 'hundai', mrs tan! tis CB lecturer nv fails to pronounce wrongly dont she?..geez...it costs me $129...it's an offer price, the original price was $169...so i consider it a steal? it might not be those really hi-tech ones, those wif v v high MB or even GB, or the apple ipod mini which many are craving for, but tis is enough for me, at least for now...n i'm happy wif it..excited n all anxious to use it!...haha...great, no more boring journeys home n to sch...i tink..hee...it's really small, light n compact...love it! geez...;)

bought tis from jurong point...had been considering for like months before i decided to get one...and all of a sudden,i had tis urge yesterday to buy it..but only to burst my wallet today..haha..

well, sch today was ok...except for the irritating cancellation of OM lecture...ot wasnt the cancellation tt we were bothered, but the last min notice...cant lecturers let us noe earlier..ok, mayb they really had some eleventh hr impt things to do...hmmm...ok, since then, i shall juz forgive n forget...i always forget anyway...geez...

Bought tis cheesy hotdog from JP golden village food counter...it was darn nice...everytime i ate the 1st one i would crave for more, but i always manage to control myself..."ching, enough!"...ok, mayb sometimes i lose control...n the impt part is, it's oni $1 per hotdog! it's really worth the money...n it's not ex in the 1st place...try it! highly recommended by me..hee....

den met kwankin at jp wif his hk frens...cher n i were about to buy the hotdogs when we saw him..1 guy wif a whole bunch of young yr 1 girls...hmmm...suspicious huh...haha...

tts abt wat i have to say for now...gotta go c my hk serial.."Survivor's Law"...nitez!!

shopping...

phew...i'm typing tis on sat nite...thou its already over 12am n considered as sun morning..i prefer to still consider it sat nite,thou my bro always insist it's already the nex day...which actually is right....geez...how fast the weekends pass...
Went shoppin at Orchard since noon...hmm...bot quite a lot of things, as usual as i would...bot a watch wif white strap which i have been craving for...n a sweet-smelling perfume tt i always wanted...hmm...i smell sweet now...haha..geez...bot some accessories too...cant help it..i already put many back to their shelves..but they juz keep popping into my hands...been trying to save money..but manage to like spend all within a few hrs when shoppin..geez...thinkin of teaching tuition or doing some part-time job during the weekends to supplement my spending pattern, but either i cant find one or i'm juz too reluctant to...mayb teaching tuition would be tired..plus hw n proj..i might not be able to cope..i tink...mayb jobs like giving out balloons on wkends isnt quite a bad idea after all...thou the pay isnt gd...
it's the last day of the GSS tml(sun,25july)...better ensure i buy everything i had wanted to...haha...tink i already have bot quite enuff...juz tinking of buying a MP3 player now...i dun mind a cheapo small brand one...the best would be under $150...tts the most i'm gonna pay..budget...
*yawn*...tired after a day n nite of crazy shoppin...nitez..honey dreams...

tired..

tired from a long day in sch and from tt thing...u all shld noe...

fridays r so tiring...its like everything's crammed in a day..tutorials after lectures n lectures after tutorials..how tired can it be... but i guess i gotta get use to it soon...within like 1 or 2 more weeks, our 1st CAs r coming...gotta really work hard for tt...n my resolution for tis sem is to be punctual for classes n try to be more hardworking...geez...i'm always late..n sometimes it's not cuz of my absence tt i'm marked absent but cuz of my lateness...so wasted...

another thing's the one tt i really cant stand much more...i dunno how i got thru my 1st yr wif tt...n i cant stand it any longer...it's been so disturbing...cant it juz leave me alone?...gonna scream at it some day, mayb i would juz lose my temper n go crazy or i'll juz lose my mind n shoot off wat i really feel..i might, but i suppose i wun...i normally would make things go thru my mind, tink whether it's appropriate, den words come out from my mouth..of course, there r certain times when my brains take a rest n my mouth takes charge...i wouldnt noe wat i would be doing then..tts when i would be doing crazy things..the diff side of me...the other side of my split personality...

i tink i have a split personality...i can juz shut my mouth all the time or talk rubbish all day...its depends on the environment n surroundings...when i'm wif chattery frens, i would juz play the role of laughing...cuz it's quite difficult to intervene...in the past, i would try my best to participate in watever topic..almost shouting n expressing my views...now, i would juz laugh along n not intervene, unless i'm quite sure there's space for me to talk...

mayb i speak too softly...still rem there was once where i was buying tis 'kueh', n i told the auntie i wanted the rice kueh...she struggled to hear wat i wanted...n i struggled to tell her wat i wanted...when finally she heard my ,"auntie, i wan tt rice kueh" ,she replied with," Aiyo, so big size but voice so small"...i felt quite hurt then...but put it off since i have been hearing tis kind of comments for decades....pple, i really appreciate it tt u dun tease me for my size..well, mayb at least not in front of me...i can tell u i cant take it..once,i even told my grandpa off for lamenting on n on for decades...i noe he's joking, but i seriously cant take it...even now as i'm typing...i feel like crying as the scenes from the past flash across my eyes..i might always be smiling, creating a always-smiling hsuehching....but i'm not always tt happy...i tend to be v emotional..i tend to cry over little things...den after crying, i would feel so silly...tinking wat was i tinking...

i'm not sure whether i'm right here...but it seems tt every scorpion shows pple the different side of themselves n keep the actual side of ourselves under the mask...ok, at least i do...geez..nitez..

5566...okiez, dun roll ur eyes...

Me,mum n Bro at Marriot..yupz, again...haha..

V4 at Marriot...geez..

Pri Sch gathering last dec...

V3...

At Granny's Bdae wif my bro n cousins..
My family n i in Thailand...

My family n I in Thailand...
My family n i in Thailand...

after one whole day.....

juz came back from a rather...er...'dunno-wat-word-to-use' day....din exatly have lessons...ms hui was really so inconsiderate...made us go all the way there, juz to do the crazy assignments...wat the ****? den after the 1 over hr of 'free access', we had to wait for like another 4 hrs before Consumer Bahaviour...N wat we did during CB tutorial?...we did mor chatting wif Mrs Kee den w talk n discuss on our tutorial...geez...this is certainly alright....haha...cuz it's rather fun, much much much better than a Feature Writing tutorial...can practically fall asleep in class...wat else can be more boring...ok, at least we have 'free access'...geez..

fortunately there r still really interestin modules on other days..like digital media applications...editing and screenwriting all tt really interests me...tink it interest most..juz tt sometimes my mind wanders off n i would get lost somewhere....haha...

did not exactly do well in yr 1...think it ought to be time for me to buck up...so i'm gonna give up some TV progs, some slackin time n get myself to put more efforts in my studies..esp projects n exams... geez...i'll try...but i've said i would buck up since sec3...its really difficult u noe..habits die hard..geez...my excuses for me to slack...haha...

it's already week 3....and its already thurs...soon it'll be wk 4..soon exams would come and soon tis sem would be over in no time...woah..as i always say, time not oni flies, but rockets...time waits for no man...and no man shld wait for time...we shld make use of time...the needles nv turn back..n like i heard from somewhere...i cant rem where, everyone shld live every second of their day like there's no tml, u nv noe wat would happen tml.....geez.....

first attempt...geez...

geez...its my 1st time writng in a blog...considered for some time for some stupid reaons...Initially, didnt wana set up my blog cuz i tot it felt funny to tell the world wat i feel...but i changed my mind...mayb it is a gd thing tt i express wat i feel n think...
projects and stuff r all coming in..headache...even got some heart aches...hope its not like leading to some heart attacks...choy!..musnt tell my dad...cuz he will start nagging abt everything n bringin up all the old stuff..saying it muz be due to insufficient sleep and unhealthy lifestyle...i noe my health isnt gd all the while...since young, medicine has come to my rescue all the time...there was once where i cough so badly for several months tt the doctor almost gave up on me...i even felt so embarassing going back to him n still not recovering..he said tt if i dun start caring abt my healt, i'm gonna get bronchitis...tt scared me...wat if i cant open my mouth n sing again...geez...so i set up my mind to take care abt myself...and finally, i recovered...haha...

ok...after my long story abt my past..here's my present...

it has been quite ok since sch reopened...the modules r mostly fine and some even interesting...lecturers overall r ok..some pretty gd..projects r flooding in..ok Diana, i understand now wat u meant then when u asked me to enjoy as much as i could when i was in yr 1...geez...
finally, i c the class gettin back again...glad the storm is over...i hope...and the rainbow always appear..geez...isnt tt like too optimistic?...nah...life is already so sad...of ocurse there r gd times, but as the saying goes, gd times r short...so ttt means...bad times r long..hmmm...quite true...my employer still haven pay me my remainin salary...isnt worth going thru all the legal stuff juz to get my $90 back...but rather the dignity involove...we deserve our money do we? we worked hard for the money, it's not as if i slack,,ok, slackin is normal...i did slack at times...but who doesnt rite?

geez....got 5 hrs break today...tt Ms Hui isnt here...n who wans to do her tutorial...n i really dun like pple who r so guai...cuz i'm not guai..cant stand pple who cant bear to skip lectures...HuiJuan...u heard tt...but i'm of course not a bad student either...no offence anywhere...not pointing any fingers...(except hj..haha)...its essential to study hard, yes, but cant u take more breaks...life's really a struggle...u have to face so many problems, things, and pple...sometimes even when u get home, ur mum starts nagging at u for not packin ur room, not washin ur cup n stuff...so there's a lot of reaosns to unwind all the time...SHOPPING!!! haha...tts like one of my favourite pasttimes...besides watching tv progs on SCV...cant live w/o them....

k...tts all for now..gotta go for my last tutorial for the day...urgh....;)