You know it when it has become a thing of "The Past"

You know it when it has become a thing of "The Past"




"You value our friendship?"

My foot.

I don't even bother to doubt whatever excuse was given. It's obvious - the difference between a reason and an excuse.

Painstakingly organised - well, maybe a little exaggerated, but the time, effort, and tons of sms sent are for real. Why waste our sms? When your efforts aren't appreciated, it sucks.

"Sorry, i don't think i'll be going."

You're sorry? Like seriously? More like just a word you use without much thought. You can go fly your kite for all you want.

It's irritating enough that all of you have thrown away what we considered " a friendship" in the past. Or maybe, i wasn't even a friend to you, all of us are but classmates.

Go and die. Yes, right now.

My Dad once asked me when we started organising the inaugural Tanglin Primary 6A'1998 Gathering, "How long do you think this gathering thing would last?"

"Hmmm.. i think as long as possible. Quite optimistic about it."

Yes, i just slapped myself. Real hard. It hurts, badly. You won't know how swollen the wound is.

I told myself time and again, not to bother with those who don't deserve. We stopped inviting those who'd rejected the invitation throughout the years. Why continue persisting since they insist on not coming? I told myself, not to give a damn to those who give excuses. I told myself I'm silly to get upset. I told myself they're simply not worth it. I told myself countless time. But I just cant help it. We're angry, year by year, it never fails to occur. No matter how hard I try to extinguish the fire within, the flame never dies.

Dishearted. That's the word.

The flame is dying. For real this time. When it proves pointless to carry on. It's time to give up.

Perhaps we'll completely give up organising after this round.

I won't be taken aback if this happens one day, in the near future.

"Friends no more?"

"Sure, we weren't friends in the first place anyway."

"Great. So it ends here. I won't wish you luck for your future endeavours. Just remember, don't don a red garment when you run out of it. Bye, forever."


Once lost, they can no longer be retrieved.







But I'm still glad there'll be coloured ones to replace these. Whether 5 or 6 attendees, you know I appreciate your attendence. With love.

Til Then..

HuiMin's Advanced Birthday Celebration at Table 108 - March 4, 2006

HuiMin's Advanced Birthday Celebration at Table 108 - March 4, 2006

Great food at the dinner table, with the duck dipped in various sauces and the Phat Thai winning favour. Colourful drinks ended the meal on a sweet(and bitter) note as the glasses emptied sip after sip. Only Ching couldn't finish her Long Island tea and complaint about getting all hot - literally. Lots of photo-taking, as usual. Wahaha..







Once again, Happy 20th Birthday Mamanim!

CHEERS!~ ;)

Til Then Folks!~

Fly me to the moon

Fly me to the moon

Everyone's either overseas enjoying the greener grass over on the other side or counting down to the day of departure. And here I am, stuck in the sunny (and rainy) island, polluting the Jurong canal as i drool with envy. Nah, I don't have to fly to the moon, there's no shopping there (kidding), somewhere else is enough.

No time. That's why i'm stuck here.
No companion. That's why i'm stuck here.
No money. That's why i'm stuck here. (Actually i could do something about this.. If only...)
No mutual desire to travel overseas. That's why i'm stuck here.

I'm desperate enough to want to go travelling alone. I guess it would be a whole new experience travelling alone, although it'll be rather boring after some time. Excited enough, i flipped through the pages of the thin blue book. I blinked at the figures with the greatest anticipation, but all the book did, was to stare blankly at me - literally.

Any sponsors? Thailand would be great. Ok, ok, Genting is good enough too. Fine, that's my limit - KL. Sure...I don't mind the resort at Malacca too. Yes, yes, a cruise would be great, erm, maybe a little better ones, at least a night or two on board? Urgh!!!! This is frustrating.. I want my holidays overseas please?!?!?

*Stamp feet on the wooden floor as the chubby fingers push away the tears*

When it comes to a point where it seems pointless, it's time to give up and look ahead.

Oh well, i'm sure Sentosa's not too bad too.

Sentosa anyone?

Til then folks!

I have only Japanese green tea to toast. Cheers, to whatever makes you happy!

Officially...

March 3, 2006 - The date marks the official end of our internship. I thought leaving the place would be hard, but i guess the high turnover rate in the media made leaving much simpler and people are so used to it that they don't really feel for it anymore (or so it seems). I still miss the pantry, probably the most well-equipped pantry with a stove, conventional oven, microwave oven, toaster, two coffee-makers - of which the kind & friendly auntie makes coffee with every morning for the office-goers, a refridgerator always packed with food & drinks, and a rather wide variety of instant drinks up for selection. I'd started packing more than a week before the last day of work, but it seems i'd left too many things at the office over time that even a little a day still left me lugging a bag full of belongings home. In case anyone's wondering, nope, they didn't offer to extend my stay as they already have plans to employ a full-time feature writer with experience. Don't ask me about my final grade. I can only say I'm not satisfied, for a simple reason - humans are never satisfied. (Ya, right!)

It's officially the start of a span of happy holidays for me. It might end shortly after, it all depends. If the local university in jurong town doesn't get back to me (they most probably won't), i'm more or less set on distant learning to get my degree from the Oklahoma City University through a not-for-profit(self-proclaimed) private institution. All it takes is two years to get a recognised degree. It's pretty disappointing that while local polytechnics are striving to change the perception of polytechnics as an 'alternative' route into a 'choice' route, the local universities are still considerably conversative in accepting diploma holders unless they soar high in grades. On the other hand, foreign universities recognise local polytechnic diplomas and treat them with due respect on a higher level - a level which diploma holders deserve. While failure of such respect is eminently missing in the local education scene, efforts are made to rectify the public perception, albeit slow in progress. As the saying goes, "Even if all doors are closed, there'll be a window left open for you." As long as you perserve, somehow the road ahead will open up for you when the time is ripe. Walk ahead, and the beam of light ahead will bring you to your destination.

I'm heading where i've always wanted to go. Glad that i'm pursuing something i've held onto since god knows when.

Happy holidays ahead.. and my calender is packed with fun-filled activities to date. Love the luxury of being able to lie in bed til a good 2pm without much worries. I've set an aim for myself to finish reading three detective stories within the allowed time frame for borrowing. We'll see if i'm disciplined enough to do just that. Meanwhile, some preparations undergoing for insights into my seemingly ideal future job. We'll see, too.

Money has been escaping from the pitiful account without turning back. I'll have to curb my desire to splurge to stop my wallet from bleeding profusely. But that'll mean a holiday with no life. No no no, not gonna let that happen. I told myself it's time to stop procrastinating. Yes, stop procrastinating HsuehChing! STOP, you idiot! Sometimes you just have to resort to scolding yourself to stop that crazy mind up there that does not function exactly the way you want it to.

Tanglin Primary School Gathering 2006 is finally undergoing the planning stage. I'm glad the initial response has been so-far-so-good. But we're all prepared for the worst, aren't we, my darling V3? Muahahah... If the time comes, i'll just sing along the lines of "Let it be..Let it be..Let it be..Let it be.."

Til then folks! Take gooooood care!

Cheers!~ ;)