June 26, 2005

Those were the days...

Those were the days...

Long gone were the days where we scramble to the playground after school for swings, slides, and some vandalism. Oops, grafitti i mean..

But somehow, something drove us to try out these childhood old school stuff...

Malt Candy!
From the old lady selling these at $1 at Holland Village near Watsons. It used to be only half a dollar when she was selling it outside my primary school. I didn't really like malt candy, but i bought it anyway.



Favourite playground facility--The Swing!
A day of project is mind-draining, much say data entry...

So...

Ready...1...2...3!!!



"Hey, i'm higher"



"Not fair! I'm higher!"



"See, i'm flying so high! I look like i'm sitting on rice!"



And the 2 kids start to fight over who goes higher for hours. (Ok, i exagerrated)

Ok lah, final verdict--DRAW! Share the trophy ah...


Then Bro and I decided to swing too...








There there....childhood fun is always the best...

Til then folks... ;)

June 17, 2005

Infatuated with Crystals

Infatuated with Crystals

If you'd noticed, i'm been wearing some crystal bracelets which i'm lately into.





You might wonder, What's so special about them?

Well, they don't only look nice when they sparkle, they can actually change a person's luck through the magnetic forces.(if you believe that is...)

I'm not exactly that superstitious, but it doesnt hurt to try, so why not? Even if it doesn't work physically, it will somehow work psychologically, and the good thing about it being a decorative item on my hand is, it sparkles!(Now i sound so vain...oh well..)

Believe it or not, crystals have these magnetic forces which will, in one way or another, change your luck, in the good way of course.

I did some minor research which can't really be considered a research, but anyway, when you buy these crystal bracelets home, you'll have to neutralise the magnetic forces before it'll work cuz of a simple reason, the forces are mixed up and confused by the forces by the previous handlers.

If the previous handler is a kind-hearted and simply a great person, good for you. If unfortunately the previous person who handled the stuff is a wicked person who only does bad deeds, then you better neutralise the magnetic forces quickly.

Since it's hard to tell who handled your crystal before you, neutralisation is the best way. But if you didn't neitralise your crystals but you naturally feel good wearing them, you can well continue wearing them without neutralizing.

But don't be too obsessed with keeping the magnetic forces pure with only your forces and not allow all of your family and friends to touch it. It's alright for them to touch it for a litle while cuz it won't really affect.

Do you know, crystals can have feelings for its owner if the owner wears it for a long time? Well, it seems so...

After talking so much of crystals, if you're convinced and have gotten yourself one, here a method i personally use for neutralisation...

Firstly, you put your crystal bracelet on/beside a crystal ball overnight as the big crystal ball can help its little counterpart.

Next, you place the crystal bracelets in the fridge, yes, you heard right, the fridge, for a good 3 to 4 hours. The colder the better...

(Imagine the clock spinning...)

4 hours later, take the bracelet out of the fridge and hold it in your hands for 20 minutes to activate the crystal. Ya, activate.

If the crystal stays warm even after 3 to 5 mins, congratulations, your crystal bracelet is activated and ready for use!

I have even bought one for my Dad and one for my Mum. My Bro doesn't need it yet. Ok, i confess, it was selling at only 3 for $10 cuz the lady in I think mid-sixties gave me this offer, cuz she said," Never mind la, just sell you 3 for $10 since my boss not seeing". Hahaha... Thanks! I bought one mum, one for dad, and one for myself, so none for bro...hahaha..

Next time perharps..i'm a good sister..Well, Daddy says a good girl don't tell lies, and i don't... (hehe)

Next, i would buy it for Grandma and Grandpa...Hmmm..gradually everyone around me will have one, that's if i have the money..haha..

Each colour has a meaning of it's own.

Purple for wisdom, good memory and everything that has to do with being intellectual. With the scary Final Year Project weighing on every nerve in my body, i think i need better memory and greater wisdom please.

I'm not sure about blue, but i simply love that colour now. As for pink, i shall leave it to your own investigation.. ;)

If you think wearing it doesn't look nice or if you're a male and you resent wearing sparkling female stuff, you can keep it in your bag or simply somewhere close to you, it works the same way.

Good Luck!~

Til Then Folks...;)

June 14, 2005

"I don't wana live anymore"

"I don't wana live anymore"

This is what a lot of typical urban dwellers like us spurt out of their mouths in times of depression or when they see no light in front guiding them.

Well, i wouldn't say i haven't exactly thought of that, but immediately the thought would be dispersed cuz i know life's more than just that.

Often i wonder why there are lives in the world.

What's the point?

Why do we live?

Why are humans created in the first place?

To get a taste of what the world's like?

To feel the warmth of love?

To feel the cruelty of society?

Or just a trip where you go through a lot of happiness/unhappiness and what nots?

I've never gotten a conclusion to this, but what i do feel is when one passes away, that's the end of everything for only that particular person.

What about your family members who love you? What about your friends who care? What about people who try so hard to help?

It ends for the dead, but definitely not for the living. The people living who loves you will be depressed and the feeling of sadness is almost unbearable.

It was only when i've been through my Great-grandmother passing away that i've realised life has another meaning to it.

Life is not only about an individual, but all around him/her.

"Life is short. Cherish your loved ones."

This has been said times and again, but how many actually gets the gist of it?

I won't say i've gotten it, but at least i've gotten a lesson to cherish life that is.

"Life has to go on."

Indeed...

June 12, 2005

In Memory of Lao Ma

In Memory of Our Beloved Lao Ma

Tan Hong Cher
(1911-2005)


This is the last family group photo that i have with Lao Ma in it.


Lao Ma has left us for 6 days now. Last Monday morning at 2am, she quietly left us, leaving lots of wonderful memories for us to keep in our hearts.

Just last Wednesday, she was cremated.

Her wake started from last monday, all the way through wed, which was a short, simple, and peaceful one.

Doing away with a lot of customories which i initially thought would have, the hall had only some tables and chairs for the guests and us, a tables with two small bunches of flowers holding two candles, a picture of Lao Ma smiling happily and blissfully, some flowers by several kind-hearted people and organisations our family members work for, and lastly, Lao Ma herself, lying in the middle of the hall, allowing all her descendents and every guests to take a last look at her.

It was the first time i've seen a lifeless body. Unlike the fear i had predicted, i wanted to hold Lao Ma's hand and tell her i'm Ah Ching, that i'm there. When Grandpa walked over to see Lao Ma lying there lifelessly, he broke down. He cried so heartbroken-ly that my heart ached. It was the first, and hopefully the last time i see him that sad.

Gong Gong(Grandpa in Hokkien) had always portrayed a cheerful image before us. It was quite unexpected that he'll break down like that. Diana and I were shocked, and we both agreed that was a different side of Gong Gong.

We would chat and even laugh at certain things while we chatted at the wake, but everyone knew deep down in our hearts, there's a cut there.

"Very sad la, but Lao Ma's in heaven now lor." Cai Cai replied when Diana and I asked him.

On the last day of he wake, that is the day of the cremation, everyone went to the Singapore Casket earlier, in hope of having more time to look at Lao Ma for the last few times.

"Hao Hao come, come and take a look at Lao Ma for the last time."

"Next time still can see what." He replied, implying that we can still see her when we go to heaven next time.

True, but that'll be in like 70, 80, or even 90 years time?

How i wished the bus would never reached the Mandai Crematorium, how i wished Lao Ma could still be with us. How i wished...

Lao Ma turned into ashes, together with our flowers that we have placed into her coffin, along with our blessings. We wiped our tears, and moved on...

Tears have dried,
wounds have healed,
but the scar would always be there.
Life has to go on...

Lao Ma, you'll live in our hearts forever.

This are the photos that i have of Lao Ma taken digitally. How i regretted not taking any photos with Lao Ma on the day of Uncle's wedding, that could have been the last photo. I could have slapped myself for taking too many photos with the kids whom i still have a long way with and not with Lao Ma.

Regrets..regrets...

Anyway, here's our beloved Lao Ma when she was still with us...































I realised that's how little i have...

Well...

I believe Lao Ma will watch over all of us from up there with peace...

June 06, 2005

Our Great-Grandmother

Our Lao Ma 1911-2005

This time, it's real...

Great-grandma has really left us.

Just as i left the tutorial room, i received a message from Daddy.

"Lao ma passed away this morning at 2am."

Feelings swelled inside, and i couldnt hold it any longer. The tears simply flowed... I was heart-broken. A bad news in the early morning is one of the last things on the list you'll want to hear.

In the toilet, i cried for a good 15 minutes and let all of it out.

We had just visited Lao Ma yesterday, and she was still lying there, struggling to keep herself awake before everyone leaves or had gone to slumberland.

She kept mumbling, and kept saying "Faster, Faster!" in Teochew. We thought she wanted to get up to go to the toilet...

It's only later in the evening today that Dad told me when his dad, my grandfather, was on the verge, he too said, "Faster, Faster!".

Maybe it's a good thing that she's released from pain...

We attended her wake just a while ago.

Lao Ma looked so peaceful lying there. But it was quite hard to accept, just 26 hours ago, i saw her lying in hospital, fighting to live for a little longer. We all thought she would pull through a few more days. But she didnt...

She waited for everyone to leave or fall asleep, then she quietly and peacefully left us.

She had been a very nice and kind person...

The funeral is a simple affair, and service would be tomorrow.

Everyone wrote their feelings in a notebook, including the kids...

"Lao Ma, we miss you. Although you're not physically here with us anymore, I know you'll be around us, protecting us. We love you..."



"Bye..Lao Ma.."